Nobody owns I.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

I've got no one to believe in.

I did something 'bad' once upon a not long ago.

I went out and I didn't come home.

Damn, now my mother is punishing me by asking me to wash ALLL the clothes myself BY HAND.

Those delicate clothes still nevermind, BUT TSHIRTS ALSO?!?!

My excuse: "Walao later people think I no money leh, not like we don't have washing machine what, somemore like that WASTE WATER *ahhh I am environmentally friendly!*

She said "Cannot. You now very good at going out hor, so all the clothes you wear out you wash yourself."

Very good, nevermind.

I said "TOMORROW I AM GOING TO BUY MY OWN WASHING MACHINE AH!"

GUESS SHE DIDNT SEE THAT COMING, NYE HEH HEH HEH HEH.

She better let me throw my clothes into the washing machine before I swipe the debit card she signed for me into something we don't need.

*evil smirk*

------

I've asked if you were happy, after all when I thought you would be angry and upset, but turns out you were happy, so I guess it doesn't matter if the only one you're showing attitude to, is me, as long as you're happy.

♥ 10:24 PM

When I put on a show.

It's hot hot hot.

And my spects is totally shiatxzx now so my Mother brought it to the optical shop.

And I'm without spects now and my eyes are about 15cm away from this screen over here.

Aaahzxzx.

Oh yah, the ciggs below are not mine luh, I don't want to say its mine also. LOL.

Its my Bro's, so for the idiots out there who think I smoke, I don't.

FYI, I hate people who smoke, and if you wanna smoke at least don't go for contrabands luh, no money still smoke for what. UTTER DOT-NESS.

♥ 7:07 PM

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

I hate goodbyes.

Random photos todays.

I never wanted to buy this cos its too common.

But Mummy suddenly got me this pink telecoil rubberband. (:

I accidentally burst one and it all leaked out and made the soup base like that. .__.

Lastly, let's not go for contrabands.

Bye.

Labels: Hardgay hooo

♥ 10:28 PM

Monday, December 21, 2009

You stare just a little too long.

Met Jinlin today for 'write xmas card marathon' because we both no motivation then she see my face got motivation. (:

We went to Starbucks, its my 2nd time, 1st time was with Davidhoehoehoe, but both times with Shepherd. HAHA.

HAHAHA, yay Jinlin found extra money and thought she was rich but turned out she was poor but you know what she's not really cos she still has money but the money is not used for the kinda purpose you know what I mean I know you don't so forget it.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

We write untill want to die already!

And I see her card very nice, so I also draw designs on mine, and I thought they were cute!

Anyway, pictures!

Yellow.

RINGDINGDONG!

I was bored so I did this.

We gave up after a few hours and I got backache and she want to rest for 2 hours and we died.

Went to Popular and played with clickclick! :O

Went home and today's weather is so sunny and colddddd.

I'm feeling cold outside.

And inside, sigh.

And my neighbour is smoking 3 times a day and the smoke comes in through my windows and into my lungs and my lungs are getting blacker and blacker and soon I'm going to get lung cancer but I don't want to die of lung cancer so I'm going to call Police soon, DAVIDHOE!!!!!!!

♥ 9:19 PM

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Let me know what you find.

Few months ago.

Would you do something just to hurt the one you love when you know that it hurts because the one you love has done that to you before?

NooooOOooOOoooooOO.

Sigh.

I'm pathetically useless.

♥ 11:52 PM

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Lying to myself when it's clear.

Church today.

Twenty six my favourite.

Finally satisfied my 1 month craving of Meridien's fishsoup noodles.

They're the best man.

Was still quite moody actually and no mood to talk to the girls.

Half sleep and eat at the same time.

Walked around with them at PlazaSing thinking of something else.

But that person don't know anyway, so what.

Being purely concerned and worried or whatever.

You know? Nobody knows, who gives a shit to me man.

On the way home on the Mrt I knocked my head very hard which made other heads turn to look.

Freaking shit man.

Sharon came to my house awhile ago.

But I just wanna be left alone, thus explains that I'm friggin moody and alone now.

Does it help that the only one that I don't wanna be left alone from, is you?

FML

♥ 10:50 PM

Friday, December 18, 2009

And I want you to know.

Was very happy to receive a call from N this afternoon to know his good results.

Not that I look down on him but I didn't expect he'd do that well.

HAHAHAHAH. :P

AFTERALL, I'm really proud of Nicholaschia, Sherrylee, Leonardyeo, Teomeowmeow and Bongyiyong for their N results!

All is tops lah, walao I hope next year I get 6 points.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! !@#$%^&*(&^%$#@

*God knocks me on my head asking me to wake up and says 'forget it yo'*

Went swimming with Jinlin and Sharon.

Don't know called Shepherding or what but whatever. LOL.

Bought cosmetics with Jinlin at Faceshop for fun! :X

Walked around and saw NickOng.

Before that saw NickWong.

But never see the Nick I want to see :x

I WANT THIS BAG FOR CHRISTMAS MANXZXZXZ, ITS A FREAKING PINK COLOUR.

OR RED, OR SOMETHING.

Besides I'm used to a new school backpack every year, AHAHAHAHA.

It's at Causeway, level4, in the shop "CHECK". *BIG HINT, LOL*

Nobody buy for me I buy for myself already. L.O.L.

Mummy already buy present for me, in which I haven't open. *snigger snigger*

Split ways and went home, Sharon and I took 903 one big round because I don't feel like going home, I started to think many miserable stuff again.

Just came home not long ago.

Was slacking downstairs walking around, below was random, I feel so pink.

It's like I've been awaken, every rule I had you breaking.

But you're the one I want and am gonna continue loving.

ON A 3 YEARS PROMISE.

Labels: Gonna be good.

♥ 11:49 PM

Thursday, December 17, 2009

~~I FEEL SO MANY THINGS AFTER THAT DAY THAT I DON'T BOTHER TO SAY OUT ANYTHING ANYMORE SINCE~~ YOU CAN'T HELP AND SOME PEOPLE JUST MAKE IT WORSE AND I'LL JUST KEEP EVERYTHING TO MYSELF KNOWING THAT I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE AND I WISH I COULD JUST DIE THAN STAY ALIVE FEELING LIKE I'M DEAD AND I WISH I COULD KILL MYSELF RATHER THAN ONLY TRY TO KILL MYSELF WHEN IT HURTS ALL OVER AGAIN EVERYDAY COS LOCKING MYSELF IN MY ROOM EVERY NIGHT AND CRYING TILL I SLEEP AND PRETENDING IT'S ALRIGHT IN FRONT OF THE CONGREGATION IS NOT ENOUGH AND I'M WALKING AROUND BEING QUIET ON MY OWN NOT KNOWING WHERE I'M WALKING AND NOT KNOWING WHAT I'M THINKING AND IT JUST SUCKS AND NOBODY COULD FEEL HOW MUCH IT SUCKS.

♥ 2:43 PM

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Level Up Camp'09.

Without Chanel. ):

Holah.

Nichooolah. (:

*covers Elton's face* YOU!!!

My short shepherd is short. :O

Hahaha, short but good. (:

Ex and new shepherd, ex sheep and new sheep, I JUST REALISED.

Oh and Junlin. L.O.L.

Will upload this in facebook for this group (:

Marsiling yoyoyoyoyo.

FACING THE GIANTS.

I loved the dormitory because the bed and blanket is pink! Very good.

Thank you girls for the fun (:

And thank you to everybody who bingbangbongxz me while playing ball. :/

I shall learn not to play ball with giants again.

I didn't upload the ghost photo cos very bad :x

It's kinda weird, that December camp is with Y-HOPE and not Youth Impact.

Meanwhile, Youth Impact camp has ended also, can't wait to hear if Red tribe owned Cheers again. \m/

Okay bye.

---

I hope you know how hard it is to swallow your own tears.

I can just burst like that because everything meant so much to me.

And I hate that f word, 'break'.

It's all that takes to trigger everything inside of me again.

It's like pushing my limits to an extent in which I was never build for.

Nobody understands.

♥ 7:13 PM

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Its past 12 and I've been waiting.

I feel.

Dumb.

But I'm still waiting.

♥ 12:53 AM

Monday, December 14, 2009

It's not without great difficulty.

♥ 12:41 AM

Saturday, December 12, 2009

No one in the world can hurt me like how you do.

♥ 12:01 PM

Killer.

I used to be like a tortoise.

I hide in the face of problems and I tend to have something/someone to protect me, but somewhat still rather defenceless.

Yet when people try to get to me, it still hurts and there's still an impact, right?

What can you do with pathetic defense like that?

I prefer to be a porcupine now.

I don't wish to be the Isabel I once was, I realise I was always at the losing end, giving in to everything, accepting whatever comes my way.

Now I hurt back whoever that tries to fuck my life.

And they better know better than to try to do anything to me.

Cos you've gotta learn that payback's a bitch.

♥ 1:19 AM

Thursday, December 10, 2009

I've got something new to hate.

I'll use this font for today!

Ate always meegoreng for lunch today and met Sharontan at Yishun to swim.

Yishun's swimming pool got difference from Woodlands' one.

The water's thicker by a lot.

If any of you swim more at either pool, try the other, you'll know what Sharon and I mean.

It's like, you won't drown at Woodlands but you'll drown at Yishun.

LOL.

Got a cut on my arm which reminded me 5secs ago of Mr Yellow.

Dancing aunties at Yishun.

Went to Northpoint macs to slack.

Chanel wasn't working. ):

And Sharon keep saying "eh this guy very cute leah", so I helped her ask him he how old.

And I ask untill very rude cos I also not interested. -__-

Actually only 14.

Gahahaha, DA JIE YOU GOING 16 YEARS OLD LIAO AND HE BLOODY SHORT.

This picture looks simple as if Sharon is taking photo of me, but actually I just noticed the boy she thinks is cute is at the back. .__.

Saw many church people, hmm.

Sat on 856 to go back home, on the bus ride, an unpleasant thing happened to me, myself and I and when Sharon said "This bus very fast", I wish the bus would just go faster and bang into a tree and kill myself.

Cried for awhile and dried the tears myself, sometimes you know you're just in life alone.

When we got down the bus, I got a bruise on my kneecap thanks to the short distancing of the seats that gave my legs a hard time despite already sitting slanted to a side.

Next time don't let me sit this kinda place I will die.

Wanted to get Alcohol to gulp down and Sharontansiokhoon ask me to buy a bloody Jolly Shandy or Red Bull. .__.

Remembered the time we stole her father's beer and went downstairs to drink.

Hahaha, wondered how many times I spit man.

Slacked with her.

Went home.

I seem to be very unfeeling now because I'm controlling my emotions to make you feel better.

And I can't stay mad at you for too long cos I'm already crushed.

Whatever you want, whatever whatever.

♥ 11:30 PM

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Your smile retains.

Mummy's reading glasses.

Hello all, today a car drove into a cup of coffee that drowned in icecream with a iceberg top.

The bird on the iceberg was pushed into a trolley and brought down to downtown east to play with snow.

Snow is sexy, so is Isabel.

HAHA, that was all just random.

LAUGH OUT LOUD MADNESS.

I feel like using this font today, it's cute, ain't it?

I feel like this is a typewriter, ahahaha.

And best of all, nobody is using it.

I went to cut my fringe at Yishun today, I look like a tootz now, so I'm still clipping it up. :O

Hahaha, the weather is so hot leh. -___-

Had Kfc for lunch and Spaghetti for dinner!

Mummy's spaghetti is always hot stuff. (;

I'm bored now, but Jaychou's songs are keeping me occupied.

Texting N halfway but guess he's gone for basketball.

Oh, well, good for him, hope his 6 pacs become visible again, I would like a sexy boy please.

Thanks for making me smile just now but I've deleted all the photos :P

Hahahahahaha.

♥ 8:09 PM